YOGA WITH ELLE MEETS YOU TUBE
Get comfy. Long post right here! I’m sure many of you are rolling your eyes back into another dimension wishing that I just quickly tagged ‘check it out’, so feel free to scroll down and skip over my blog, but for those of you that do want to listen, here is a bit more depth into what this post really means to me.
If I’ve learnt anything over the past few months it’s that it’s ok to be a little bit vulnerable. So, here we go.
Many people will tell you when you leave the corporate world, that you’re brave, and maybe to some extent that’s true – but what I can tell you is
you need to be completely and utterly fearless!
When I decided to use my qualification and teach classes I was terrified. I doubted myself, and kept telling myself ‘I can’t do this’, ‘I’ve never taught a class before’, ‘what if I get it wrong’, ‘what if no one shows up’, ‘maybe nobody will like it’. I was genuinely so afraid. I was afraid because it was new. Afraid because it was something I had never done before. Afraid simply because it was outside of my comfort zone. And I was completely alone in this. I had no one to guide me through it, so my only option was to step down or step up.
My immediate response, was to back out of it. I thought ‘well maybe I should just wait a bit longer. Wait until I’m ready’… but what would I be waiting for? Ultimately I knew deep down that I was trying to put it off and actually this feeling of fear was only a result of stepping outside of my comfort zone. I knew I wasn’t going to be physically hurt, or that I was in danger. It was just a stupid fear of getting something wrong, being a disappointment to myself, along with being judged by others.
So I realised it was ridiculous. that I was being ridiculous and if I didn’t try then I would never get anywhere further in life. And as for people judging – people will judge you regardless. It’s none of my business what others think about me.
And it was that day that I told myself
‘whenever there’s something that I’m really scared of, then whatever that thing is, that’s exactly what I’m going to do’
so I found a venue for my classes, set a date and the rest is history…
So why am I telling you this now?
What does this have to do with this post? – Because I still get that anxiety and fear whenever I start something new, but now I know how to manage it, and I revert back to:
‘step out of your comfort zone, because nothing ever grows there!’
So, here’s to levelling up and stepping out of my comfort zone as I hit my next fear…
I’m not going to lie I am cringing SO hard at myself. I’ve contemplated not posting this yoga video simply because it’s not perfect. I keep watching parts like ‘damn my posture is so bad in some of the positions’ and ‘my voice is irritating’. We all do it don’t we from time to time, find a flaw in a photo or a blog post and then disregard it because it’s not ‘perfect’ or we’re worried of what other people might think.
So I’m staying true to myself. I am not striving for perfection. I can make improvements for future posts.
Because if you wait to be ‘ready’ or for ‘perfection’ then you’re just wasting time.
So I hope that this might be a way to show you how I deal with my imperfections. And believe it or not I’m not only posting this for me. So many times I’m asked when I’ll be creating a You Tube channel for when yogis can’t make classes. So here it is… and I’m sorry that it took so long.